Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Freedom...for now.

I have some freedom for the time being. Izzy is napping in her crib. I honestly can't remember the last time she took a nap in her own crib without me. Ahhh I could get used to this. Crazy how she is 14.5 months old and I swear she hasnt slept in her crib for naps since she was a newbie.... I loved our snuggle time, mainly now because thats when i sleep due to work. I decided today to try it out again, she used to wake right up so thats why i haven't attempted in awhile, I pushed her nap back a bit since she woke up late. Don't let that fool you she didn't sleep good at all last night. Go figure. My night home and she decided she couldn't sleep alone. She takes awhile to adjust to this job I have.  I really wish I could afford to quit it. Seriously. I hate it. sigh....

Well, theres really nothing completely new to us lately. Which is fine I suppose. I don't know. I feel very exhausted lately. I may be finally reaching my breaking point with the lack of sleep. I could deal fine with her fighting her crib and what not if I had the chance to sleep most nights. You know instead of work. Babies aren't cheap! I need to win the lottery. I don't know how else I will get back completely on my own day....

April 1st is our court date. I am very nervous about it. For many reasons than just the fact of will I get anything out of him for her. I don't know how I will feel seeing him again. I haven't been face to face with him since eeerrr she was 5 months and that was an accidental run in....that did NOT go well. I can be civil I can be mature about this situation but there is still a big part of me that just wants to let him have it. I know I know it won't do anything. He won't understand. So I will go and keep my mouth shut like a good girl that I am. Thankfully my friend will watch peanut for me. I can't bring her anywho....

Next thing on my have been thinking about this alot lately. I really want to go back. I want to do something OTHER than retail/serving. That will have to wait till I can put her in school. Hopefully that will work out!

I wish I had more time to keep updating this. But this is all for now.

I felt like posting a picture from newbie days! This is Izzy going home from the Hospital...1 day old! ohhh so tiny! :)

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